… T as in time.
I know I always joke on here about how things give me anxiety, but it’s no joke… I really do suffer from anxiety. Real, sometimes crippling, anxiety. Ever since I was a kid, I was always a nervous person. Always worrying about being sick/ being away from my parents/ going to school/ waking up/ going to sleep/ sleep away camp/ etc. etc.
Over the years, I have had to learn ways to keep it under control with things like flower essences (read more about these miracle potions here & here), acupuncture (lifesaver), & different coping techniques- such as throwing something back & forth between your hands to distract your brain.
But there is just one thing, that if I think about too long, puts me into a tailspin that won’t stop- time. It gets me every time- no pun intended. The fact that I just turned 27, & 18 feels like just yesterday, makes me nuts. It really does go too damn fast. People always say “I can’t believe it’s already October, where did the time go?”. Great question, I ask myself that all the time. Usually around 12am, & then it runs through my head over & over again until around 2am, when my exhausted brain finally shuts down. Good times.
I actively try every single day to accept the fact that time flies, to live more in the moment, to not worry about tomorrow, but it’s easier said then done. Then again, it’s probably just one of those things that takes time… go figure.
Anyone else out there suffer from anxiety? If so, I hope this post made you realize it’s nothing to be ashamed/embarrassed about, & actually feels good to talk about it sometimes. If you’ve got any great tips on how to curb your anxiety, I’d love to hear them!
Hope you all have an anxiety-free Friday, & thanks for letting me rant every once in a while.
P.S. How insanely cute are my new floral sheets & vintage inspired alarm clock? Both from Ikea, in case you were wondering ;).
xx, E