Well, this post is taking a turn for the interesting & I haven’t even started yet.

I had a plan to write about this TED talk that I think is super important, but I was just NOT feeling the subject today. If you’re not feeling it, pretty damn hard to try and reflect on it. Basically, the last 3 weeks of my life have been a cluster fuck… & that’s just what I feel like I should express to you guys today.

Right now it is 5:11pm, my goal was to be home by 3 to get a post live, but that didn’t happen. I now have to take a break from writing this post that I JUST started to hopefully get up an Instagram… cause in the blog world, if you don’t have an Instagram up by 2pm, I guess you’re losing???

By 5pm, you should probably have 2.

Also, gotta feed the dogs, I have a call at 6pm, & should probably make time for food… my guess is I will be back to writing this post around 7pm, it will take me two hours minimum. The post be live around 9pm, which is too late to post an Instagram. SO- tomorrow I will post on Instagram but then there is no point in doing another post tomorrow. Which leaves me to a possible three posts this week, & that makes me feel like a failure.

There you go, a look inside my thought process. FUN FUN, now I gotta BRB to do all of the above.

What I’m Wearing:

Frame ‘Le Original’ skinny jeans | WRSTBHVR ‘Homie Lover Friend’ long sleeve | Pretty Little Thing black loop knit cardigan | Public Desire ‘Maple’ platform ankle boots | Gucci belt bag (got mine from Tradesy) | yellow lens aviators

*UPDATE: I am back from eating dinner, posting an Instagram, having a call, catching up on emails, getting distracted, & feeding the dogs. It’s now 11:04pm, so I guess tomorrow it will be.*

Honestly, this has been the theme of my past two weeks. Have you guys noticed I’ve haven’t been posting everyday? I hope not. I keep telling myself it’s okay if you only get three posts up in a week. Sometimes two (ugh, this literally kills me). I know in my heart it’s okay because I am really trying to post strong content to make up for my lack of regularity, with the exception of this ramble, but I just can’t stop with the JEWISH GUILT on myself.

I feel guilty for this because I feel like I am not doing enough, when in reality, I am doing too much FOR ME.

Everyone is busy & many people way busier than me. Which is where my problem stands, the constant comparing the amount of stuff I do & how stressed out I am vs. the amount of stuff other people do & how not stressed they seem makes me batshit. All these “other people” are going to business meetings for lunch, squeezing in a workout, doing a blog shoot, getting up killer content, slaying the Instagram game, making dinner for 4 & settling down to watch Netflix (sans computer) at around 8:30pm.

MEANWHILE, I AM OVER HERE STRUGGLING TO FIND A MINUTE TO BRUSH MY DREADS HAIR.

On top of Fashionlush, there is blog-doo, & on top of that I have been working two HUGE products at the same time (cause I’m a masochist like that). Oh, & we can’t forget the fact I decided this was my year to vlog… which has been a way bigger deal than I expected.

Some people may say, “piece of cake, stop complaining!”. First of all, I KNOW FOR SOME THIS MAY SEEM LIKE A BREEZE, but the whole point of this post is that everyone needs to know their OWN limits & be comfortable with that. The comparison game gets the best of us… so I guess the whole point of this post, to remind you guys that if you’re overwhelmed you will be underproductive & you just can’t compared your start line to someone else’s finish line (or middle line, whatever!).

Also, never forget the power that comes from the art of saying NO.

Secondly, I would call this venting over complaining… or maybe just real talk to keep you guys in the loop. I used to blog like this all the time, & it feels good. It’s therapeutic for sure, but it’s also just a good way for me to check in with you guys & share a bit about what’s going on behind the screen.

The ride isn’t always smooth, but I am super grateful to have you guys riding it with me!!!

x, Erica

p.s. yes- we did shoot at a Mexican restaurant, cause this bitch always needs a burrito.

[ PHOTOS BY ARIELLE LEVY ]